I am a mess , I confess.

I am a mess , I confess. And by mess I don't just mean the physical stuff like my messed up closet through which clothes are falling out or the bookshelf or my messed up room. I mean the REAL mess when life gives you lemons. I am a mess mentally and emotionally. This is how my stage is right now. Should I just lock myself up in a room and not see the daylight? Or should I just be on social media all day and not actually meet humans? 
No I don't see a reason why I should be ashamed of this. This is who I am . Yes, I am a mess and I like it! 
I dance in a mess , I work in a mess and I live in a mess. 
(You can't even imagine how messy I am when I write my articles...like this one)

  "  Being a mess is a beautiful part in the journey of self      discovery "

                  No matter how much we try to take control of our lives , no matter how much we try to plan everything....things will go wrong and they are supposed to go wrong so you learn to make them right.This is what happens things fall apart and come together and fall apart again. And it's all a mess when you are in this transition. But each time you build yourself up , you grow. 
Each time you let yourself be a mess , you learn to get your sh*t together and come back even stronger.

                   Being a mess is a beautiful part in the journey of self discovery. When we are a mess we are indecisive , we don't know what we should do,we don't know what we want and we certainly don't know how to deal with this huge mess called LIFE. It feels like a maze in which are curious to find our way out.We are curious for answers. 
                    It is this time in our lives that we learn more about ourselves , our desires , our passion. It is this messed up time which makes us realise our  goals and gives us a drive to achieve them all.
                   Trust me , nobody likes to be a mess . Neither do you. But also , nobody has ever grown from stability . When you find yourself stuck and messed up . Don't pity yourself. Be proud of it.
Well , you are doing atleast something out of your life , standing up for something unlike others who blindly follow the crowd.
                    

                   Society pressures us to be "perfect". It wants us to fit in to their definition of " perfect " . When you don't give in , when you are a mess just like me society labels you as " good for nothing" , "failure" , "worthless" . But no ....don't even try to fit in . There's no need to . 

Just embrace the glorious mess that you are and everything will be as perfect as you want .

content writer and editor : Sharvi kadam

Do you want your " happily ever after?" Atleast I don't.

Artist : Yash Birwadkar
We all dream of  finding " the one " ,
of someday meeting our " prince charming" or "women of our dreams". We  feel like once we find our soulmate everything will fall back into place , suddenly all our problems would vanish and life would start making sense. We feel like finding true love and 
having our "happily ever after " is what life is all about. Well , yes 
that's what life is all about.....in a 'fairytale!'.
                      But guess what , we live in REAL  world ( not that you didn't know) And in this world love is not about finding the one and having your happily ever after . Nobody talks about what happens beyond that happily ever after. Nobody talks about those heated arguments , misunderstandings or jealousies . Nobody talks about resentment , pain and heartbreaks. This too is an inseparable part of falling in love. 
        Falling in love is not just having butterflies in your stomach on seeing on your beloved. It is not just exchanging expensive gifts to make each other happy. Falling in love is about being there for each other no matter what. It is about keeping  patience with your partner even when they are driving you crazy (read: insane). It is accepting their imperfections and laughing on their quirks. 
Falling in love is not just holding hands during lovey dovey times but vowing to never leave that hand in tragic times. 

Falling love in is not just gazing at the sunset together but embracing the sunrise with the warmth in each other's arms.

 

  And as cliche` as it sounds , falling in love is easy staying in love is not. Staying in love is a choice you make every single day to love only that one person unconditionally inspite of seeing their flaws. Because their flaws are what makes them "them" (read : unique). And makes you fall for them even more.

        Yes, I know this totally sounds like fairytale love. But trust me when things get rough   (read:REAL) you realise the seriousness of it. You've got to get out of your fantasy world and deal with this real sh*t .

But instead you mess things up even more badly. You never expected this to happen. This wasn't the part of your plan. This wasn'nt the part of your " happily ever after".

            So let me tell you one thing ,nobody has ever lived "happily ever after". ( bravo! in case you guessed that right.)

There are going to be tough times , fights and arguments. There are going to be times when you absolutely hate your significant other. There will be times when you even curse or couldn't even stand by each other. But when you give your partner a chance to communicate their feelings. When you give yourself a chance to communicate yours. When you give each other a chance to resolve your issues just so you don't lose your better half , that's when you know it's REAL. Cause that's what is REAL.

       It doesn't has to be " happily ever after" ....it just has to be " happy! ".            

 CONTENT WRITER : SHARVI KADAM
SPECIAL CREDITS : YASH BIRWADKAR  FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL SKETCH.
CONTENT EDITOR : SHARVI KADAM 

Deewani Mastani!

A performance really close to my heart. This was the first time I took the stage all by myself. 
With simple choreography , the elegance remains in simplicity.
There are many songs on your 'favorites' list  but very few songs you feel connected to, this was one of them for me.
It's all about connecting to the music, synchronizing with the beats and moving with rythm.
And it feels amazing when you are able to express this feeling to audience. 
Dance is the best form of self expression. I am completely myself when I dance.
(okay, I better stick to one topic cause there are infinite things about dance I would like to share
and it's difficult to shut up when you talk about your passion).
So, I was lucky enough to get two opportunities to perform on  this wonderful song.

I revised the choreography and put my own little twist to it before performing second time.

     
About the make-up controversies

I saw many make-up tutorials for the perfect-mastani-look but did not intend to follow them. 
Instead I tried doing something of my own.

 products - lakme 9 to 5 red lipstick 

                   mac gel eyeliner

               

  
Yes I know red lipstick with this look wasn't the perfect match. But being addicted to having bold red lips .
 I just couldn't resist.
I always prefer comfort over looks. And I have never been comfortable with make-up.
Powder,foundation, concealer, blush and contouring are not really my thing. I am the kinda girl who puts on a lip balm or maybe liner and is ready to go!
So make-up has been an all time struggle for me during performances. Why put on so much make-up and try to look someone you are not? Especially on stage, when I say I am completely myself, it means from inside and out. Putting on make-up for enhancing your features is completely different than putting on a mask. 
Finally, on the performance day my almost-no make-up look was disagreed by many yet I sticked to my idea and outcome was much better than I had expected. 

  products - liquid eyeliner by insight
                   lakme eyeconic curling mascara
                   maybelline babylips berry sherbet lip balm