Hold me.

No, I don't want you to say " It's going to be okay."
I want you to hold me , stay with me until it 'gets okay'.
I want you through the rain and storm
Through the thunder and darkness
When my soul cringes to believe in faith
When it ceases to believe in me
I want you to look me in the eyes
Let me see my own reflection in you.
See me in you.
One who has no doubts and fears
One who is so fierce
To have loved a soul like you.

No, I don't want you to say " I will always be there".
I want you to caress my hair , kiss me on the forhead .
Say no words
Just hold me tight
Hold me until your 'always ' becomes
'forever'.

When my hands shiver,
When my legs have lost all their strength,
When my body has just given up on me.
No, I don't just want you to say " I will grow old with you".
I want you to 'grow' old with me.
To grab me by the waist and kiss me
Like your lips touched mine never before.

When my soul is tired of living
Surviving .
Merely existing.
With that bent spine and wrinkled shaky hand of yours.
I want you to embrace me in your warmth.
Say no words
Just hold me tight.
Hold me until I feel this world is a better place for us to thrive.

Darklight

She was made of darkness and light , a paradox in her own . Her light enough to show her own tribe. Her darkness though was a side of hers she never believed she had . It created her and consumed her.Like a demon and an angel resting in one soul. Angel is the well wisher she thought . But the dark side of life makes her trust the demon more. 

     She has been always afraid to face the demon in her. Yet it was her reality ...it was time to accept it. The perception that angels are good and demons are evil started fading  away as she stepped her way into the darkness. It was her mind playing games with her she realised. It's not what you look at that matters , it's what you see.  There is no good and evil ...it's our vision , how we decide to perceive it . Learning to embrace the darkness took more courage than clinging on to the light .

        She may not be the same person now , the one made with darkness and light. Her energies are synchronised.  The light and darkness are no longer two different aspects. The synergies of the two gave her a feeling of euphoria. 

She was made of darklight , a paradox in her own .

I am more than a girl

I am more than a girl who looks in the mirror at her flawless self and thinks she’s beautiful.

I am that woman who sees her flaws and still feels beautiful.

She knows she’s not perfect and doesn’t have to be.

I am more than a girl who struggles making her winged liner perfect and dresses up like the “red carpet look.”

I am that woman who knows to embrace her body without the need of fancy clothes.

She knows they compliment her body but do not define her.

I am more than a girl who loves to dance all night to loud music.

I am that woman who loves to move her body to the rhythm of the music that takes her into her own little world.

She doesn’t care about perfecting the steps, she just goes with flow of music, feels her body, her emotions without missing a beat.

I am more than a girl you can have a small talk with…

I am that woman who wants to have real deep conversations…

About the stars, the moon, about the meaning of life.

She wants to know your passion, your purpose,

She hates small talks, they are just empty.

I am more than a girl who will choose her friends, her family above everything else.

I am that woman who will sometimes cheat a little bit and choose “herself” first.

She knows the happiness with friends and family

But sometimes, she chooses the peace in solitude.

I am more than a girl whom you can just hurt, apologize and get away with.

I am that woman who for once, will forgive you but will forever leave you with regret.

She doesn’t believe in taking revenge, she wants the peace that forgiveness brings.

I am more than just a girl you can fall in love with,

I am that woman who makes you fall in love with life.