Tuesday, 22 March 2016

Do you want your " happily ever after?" Atleast I don't.

Artist : Yash Birwadkar
We all dream of  finding " the one " ,
of someday meeting our " prince charming" or "women of our dreams". We  feel like once we find our soulmate everything will fall back into place , suddenly all our problems would vanish and life would start making sense. We feel like finding true love and 
having our "happily ever after " is what life is all about. Well , yes 
that's what life is all a 'fairytale!'.
                      But guess what , we live in REAL  world ( not that you didn't know) And in this world love is not about finding the one and having your happily ever after . Nobody talks about what happens beyond that happily ever after. Nobody talks about those heated arguments , misunderstandings or jealousies . Nobody talks about resentment , pain and heartbreaks. This too is an inseparable part of falling in love. 
        Falling in love is not just having butterflies in your stomach on seeing on your beloved. It is not just exchanging expensive gifts to make each other happy. Falling in love is about being there for each other no matter what. It is about keeping  patience with your partner even when they are driving you crazy (read: insane). It is accepting their imperfections and laughing on their quirks. 
Falling in love is not just holding hands during lovey dovey times but vowing to never leave that hand in tragic times. 
Falling love in is not just gazing at the sunset together but embracing the sunrise with the warmth in each other's arms.

  And as cliche` as it sounds , falling in love is easy staying in love is not. Staying in love is a choice you make every single day to love only that one person unconditionally inspite of seeing their flaws. Because their flaws are what makes them "them" (read : unique). And makes you fall for them even more.
        Yes, I know this totally sounds like fairytale love. But trust me when things get rough   (read:REAL) you realise the seriousness of it. You've got to get out of your fantasy world and deal with this real sh*t .
But instead you mess things up even more badly. You never expected this to happen. This wasn't the part of your plan. This wasn'nt the part of your " happily ever after".
            So let me tell you one thing ,nobody has ever lived "happily ever after". ( bravo! in case you guessed that right.)
There are going to be tough times , fights and arguments. There are going to be times when you absolutely hate your significant other. There will be times when you even curse or couldn't even stand by each other. But when you give your partner a chance to communicate their feelings. When you give yourself a chance to communicate yours. When you give each other a chance to resolve your issues just so you don't lose your better half , that's when you know it's REAL. Cause that's what is REAL.
       It doesn't has to be " happily ever after" just has to be " happy! ".            

Sunday, 13 March 2016

An open letter to the ex boyfriend I am still in love with..

  Have you ever loved someone so much that you set them free? Have you  felt in spite of their absence, they still reside in your  heart?
Yes, relationships are a two way street. They are about give and take, about making each other happy. But when you truly love someone just giving them all of you unconditionally is enough, feels enough. Sometimes, you have to love a person without expecting anything in return because you know you will never be able to give the same love to anyone else. Your heart and soul will never accept anyone new.They have been damaged beyond repair.None but that person has the power to rebuild the broken you....but that person has left. That person will never look behind. A person whom you gave everything, wholeheartedly, gave you nothing in return. Nobody is ever going to understand how bad that hurts!

    I lost a part of my soul. My soul has been teared apart.
    I trusted you with a part of my soul, I put a part of me in you.
    But you went and stabbed it with a basilisk fang...
    My soul put up a fight, it didn't want to say goodbye.
    But you stabbed harder, it screamed in agony.
    It was totally destroyed, it begged for mercy.
    But you ignored it's pleas for forgiveness, you stabbed it harder       with the fang. 
    It no longer resisted the stabs. 
    Slowly, it let go, it let the pain sink in.
    You continued stabbing it till it was gone.
    And that's how I lost a part of my soul.
    You have killed something inside me. 
    I feel an empty space in the chest.
    I never knew you had the power to do something so brutal.
    In spite of all the cuts and bruises , my heart still yearns for you.
    With all the wounds and tears , I still love you.
    I never thought "forever " was supposed to end so soon.
    You broke all your promises , you destroyed them all.
    but I shall keep them safe , safe inside my heart.

   I miss you every freaking second of the day.
   Your hands , your touch....I still feel them.
   I feel the gentle brush of your lips against mine.
   The taste of your kiss still lingers in my mouth.
   I still feel the warmth of your hugs , the comfort in your arms.

Our love.
The love which was never to be lost.
The love which gave everyone hope.
The love which had faced a lot.
The love which overcame every obstacle.
The love which grew stronger with time.
The love which was so pure.
But soon it became the love  which left everyone in pain.
Never to be  heard of....never to be spoken of.
The love which shattered everyone.
The love which never gave a chance for justifications.
The love that felt like a perfect dream , turned into a terrible nightmare.
I never dreamt of this but we all are living in a dark space.

I have shown the world and you... how strong I am.
I can just try to pretend as if everything's fine , put up a fake smile,
take a deep breath and laugh at all the little things in life.
But every moment without you still kills me.
who can I tell this?
I've been dying every second . It's giving me a slow death.
But how does that concern you.
Nobody cares.
You don't. 
Do you?

Do you still remember me? Do you still cry sometimes?
Do you still regret those memories?
Or do you still wish I was there besides you , with you , for you, in your arms?

Do you still feel my presence?
Do you still remember the taste of my love?

Do you still remember the way you looked at me with those loving eyes?
Do you still remember the times when my smile was your world?

Do you still remember our long talks which would go on for hours?
Do you still remember the small promises which was supposed to last forever?
Do you still remember us?

Maybe it's just me.
Maybe I overthink and you dont' think that much.
Maybe you'll think later and I'll just stop thinking.
Maybe you'll come back and I'll walk away.
Maybe you'll never love again , maybe I'll do the same.
Maybe you'll cry , maybe I'll die in silent pain.
Maybe I'll regret thou I'll try had to forget.
Maybe we'll come together or maybe we'll walk away.
Maybe our life will be perfect or maybe we'll learn to live it in an imperfect way.